You might have noticed that I skipped a blog post last week, and I’ve been reflecting on how to give myself grace for my inconsistency. I kept promising myself, “Tomorrow, I’ll write it.” But, as is often the case, tomorrow turned into next week. While I can afford to delay my writing, I can’t postpone the crucial projects at work.
This past week has been a whirlwind, with my career demanding my full attention. It was a short holiday week, packed with deadlines, and I found myself eager to go the extra mile. After long days at work, I’d quickly transition into “mom mode,” but I admit I often feel drained, struggling to keep up with my daughter. In those moments of fatigue, I’ve resorted to turning on the TV—a guilty pleasure—to give both of us a little downtime. We often end up watching Ewan McGregor’s documentary, Long Way Home, which has become a shared indulgence.
So, why the guilt? It stems from my internal battle with feelings of selfishness as I pursue my career ambitions. I’ve been fortunate to receive incredible opportunities, and I want to seize them to showcase my talents. Yet, I can’t shake the nagging worry that this ambition might come at a cost—specifically, the time I spend with Sadie. As she’s in daycare from Monday to Friday, I want to cherish every minute we have together. Whether we’re snuggled on the couch, coloring, or building with blocks, I can see how much she treasures those moments. When I’m fully engaged, our time is filled with laughter and learning, creating memories I know will last a lifetime.
One of the toughest challenges of motherhood is placing my career on the back burner. I understand this phase is temporary, and I genuinely believe that I won’t regret prioritizing my daughter in the long run. I’m learning to appreciate the fact that while my colleagues may be advancing in their careers, I’m choosing to invest in my family right now, and that’s perfectly okay.
As I navigate these toddler years, I’m realizing that finding a balance between my professional aspirations and my role as a devoted mommy is a delicate dance. I would love to hear from you about how you manage the juggling act of career and parenting. Have you discovered a rhythm that helps you maintain a strong connection with your child(ren)? Please share your insights in the comments—I’m eager to learn from your experiences!